Leaving

finally for Panama in the morning!

My last few days after I finished my final have been so busy! I feel like I didn't really get to rest except for that one day I didn't leave Judge...but even that day was ridiculous.

I am so exhausted right now. I actually did a lot of things today and surprisingly had quite a few people to meet even though it feels like the campus is empty. Anyway, I need to sleep...I hafta wake up early tomorrow.
Ahhh~! I'm so excited! I'm also really thirsty but I don't want to walk around in this empty building cus it's a bit scary to be honest. There's one other girl on 3rd floor still here I think. Oh no, but I'm too thirsty. I need to go get water.

Goodnight &goodbye blog (for a week)

Hm...

Sometimes I feel like people are praying for me.
I just get a random thought that's like I feel like someone is praying for me ._. "It's like I have ESPN" jk -__- (mean girls)

but anyway, I realized I really can't be bitter for an entire day. I should stop trying to make my days so bitter by clogging my mind with negative thoughts. Blaaah
Happiness may be contagious; but so is unhappiness. Let's stop contaminating the world with the latter.

&Let's pray for Japan
I love Japan.

One more

day and I am done
One more day and I can relax
Just help me through this day with calmness, focus, and understanding

I've been just -_- around these past few days; sorry if I have brought down your happiness.

Anyway, I want to stop neglecting the power of thinking.
How you do is usually determined by how well you think you'll do.
Can you believe that?
I guess it's difficult to truly believe. When you inevitably notice many flaws in yourself, it's hard to look beyond and think positive. Regardless, I WANT TO THINK MORE POSITIVELY! I've transformed into a major pessimist here and it's so sad. Ok, I'm going to do well on my final and I'm going to stop trying to take only easy classes. Instead, I will continue to challenge myself as I have done previously in my life. I will do great (cus I'm the best). Hm, THIS BETTER WORK!

In some ways, positive thinking is like faith in that we just believe without fully knowing.
Ok TIME TO GO.
WISH ME LUCK!

n__________n

meal prayers

I usually just do them silently (or forget -_-)
but it seems like lately my non-Christian friends would wait for me to pray o_o'
or ask if I had already prayed ._.

isn't that kinda interesting?
anyway, WHY AM I WRITING A BLOG WHEN I SHOULD BE STUDYING?! WHY DO I WRITE SO MANY BLOGS NOW?! -__________-
maybe I'm improving as a blogger.
wuzzzzzzzup

I desire

more self-dicipline
and self-control.

God's Profit

I’m quoting from Magnificat.

“True profit is not an accounting matter. Real gain is not accumulating things, even to the point of accumulating ‘the whole world.’  Real gain is finding oneself, which means finding one’s place in the mystery of Jesus Christ. Giving away one’s life to Jesus in a whole-hearted embrace of his cross is the key to finding oneself, for only in self-giving love are we united with Christ.” 

God wants us to profit, just not in the same way society defines profit. He wants to fill us with joy. 

Yet, what does it mean to deny myself? What does it mean to carry his cross? If I lose my life, I will be saved? I thought...I was already saved? Did I already lose my life? But I'm alive...

hmm >ㅂ< 

Lent

God our Father, in this lenten season may we not betray your love by trying to deserve it. Help us to fast from all that distracts us from your love. Help us to recognize you as the origin and goal of all of the desires you places in our hearts. Help us be true to ourselves and true to you by continuing to beg for your love. We ask this through Christ our Lord. 

This lent I am giving up:
-chocolate
-drinks (except water)

I will (try to):
-read Bible, reflect, pray daily
-complain less
-show more love and kindness toward others
-blog daily! (maybe ._.)

Could you remind me?

of God's endless love for me


Deuteronomy 31:8 "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you or forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged"

John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid"

Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go"

2Corinthians 4:16&18 "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day" & "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal"

Psalm 119:116 "Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed"

Isaiah 26:3 "The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, because he trusts in You"

Psalm 55:22 "Cast your burden on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be moved"

2Timothy 1:7 "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but of power and of love, and of calm and well-balanced mind, and discipline and self-control"

Isaiah 41:10 "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"

Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble"


Matthew 6:36 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"

Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself also in the Lord and he shall give you the desires of your heart"

1Thessalonians 5:16 "Be joyful always"(personal favorite)

._.

just doesn't make sense.

i miss facebook

wah

i'll write better blogs later
maybe

march

is here.

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k8uaAJFnnDU
why does everything have to be so hard?
 only for now 
two weeks; almost there

힘들고 짜증나ㅠㅜ
그런데 힘내고 공부해야지
i have no choice

buuut i can do anything if i just believe that i can do anything
DUH.