Pleeeeeeeeease

help me focus today.

I slept a lot. Why am I so tired? -____-z

Strength

I feel so strong today.
Maybe I'll take over the world


Right now.

BIG Sigh*

feels as though I've wasted my entire day trying to accomplish one thing that seems to have failed.


but it's okay.
because i have hope. because i'm not just gonna let myself perish and wither with self-pity and self-hate


gogogogogogogo
studytime begins now/

The end of my first

college year is almost here.

I was talking with my mom recently about how I felt so disappointed.
How I felt as though I have gained nothing, as though I've wasted this entire year.
How miserable I felt because I let myself become fatter, become lazier. I let myself transform into this complaining monster.

I can't really say I don't really feel that now, because that wouldn't be true.
But I feel something in addition.

I feel so thankful.
So thankful for these first memories-

the first class I attended
the first person I talked to
the first roommate I had
the first fellowship I joined
the first time I cried in college
the first pong game I played
the first 1902 all-nighter
the first Hinman letter I got

Thank you so much. (& there's definitely so much moree)

Thank you for the friendships I have created. The love that people have shown me.
The encouraging, disciplining, understanding advisers You've placed in my life.
Thank you God that I didn't give up. Thank you God that I am still trying to understand Your love.

I have failed so so much. I have been so weak, so stubborn, so bitter, so sad, so hypocritical, so rude, so negative, so sinful.
Yet, You didn't let me give up and I am just so thankful.

Sorry for who I am currently. Sorry that I haven't achieved my potentials.
I'm so sorry but I have hope.
"And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us" (Romans 5:5)

:)
I'll write more later.
Byebye!

Grrrrrr......

so much work!
i wish i could EAT IT-*
that would be a lot easier

i also wish i was at six flags
or was outside playing since its such a good weather

and i could have been
but i just chose to be in my room
"studying"  -_- too bad i'm so unproductive! grrrrrr.

i also miss homeee

uh oh, i need to control my whining
i'll stop right here but just know that inside i have like 10+ things to complain about
lol but almost there! go juliana go! (self encouragement ftw)

i realized i have three main emotions that construct my life:
(&they are usually to the extreme, darnit)
1. ^__^
2. T__T
3. D:<

i am at #3 today

but nonono
no time to rawr at the world
and nope, it's not ending today
geeeeesh
the world can end after i'm dead
kthxbai

AHHHHHHHHhh

I HATE WRITING THIS PAPERRRRRR!!!!!!!

okay
that's all
goodbye

no facebook

how should i waste time....................................................

maybe i shouldn't
lol-___-
D;