Friday, December 2, 2011
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Broken.
Financially? After online shopping and purchasing tickets to Boston/NY?
Yes.
But also inside me. Sometimes I forget.
I am so broken and instead of amending the broken pieces, I just hide them. I cover it and forget about it.
Actually though, this term has been really good for me actually.
God answers prayers; my roommates love me; I have been more disciplined; etc.
I've still made many mistakes. I still have so much to grow. God, I am broken in many ways because I don't have wisdom! Lord, give me wisdom!
All I do is scream out what I want from God these days. I also just let time pass without God. I just don't spend enough time with the one who loves me more than anything. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that I have been so selfish these days and not caring about other people. I'm so sorry that I have been so thankless when you have given me this really fun term and many opportunities.
My heart is being pulled in so many ways. I just don't know what I want. Please, God, anchor it down with your love.
Don't let me just throw away my brokenness. Please God, fix them. I trust you.
God's got my heartbeat runnin' away.
True dat.
Yes.
But also inside me. Sometimes I forget.
I am so broken and instead of amending the broken pieces, I just hide them. I cover it and forget about it.
Actually though, this term has been really good for me actually.
God answers prayers; my roommates love me; I have been more disciplined; etc.
I've still made many mistakes. I still have so much to grow. God, I am broken in many ways because I don't have wisdom! Lord, give me wisdom!
All I do is scream out what I want from God these days. I also just let time pass without God. I just don't spend enough time with the one who loves me more than anything. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that I have been so selfish these days and not caring about other people. I'm so sorry that I have been so thankless when you have given me this really fun term and many opportunities.
My heart is being pulled in so many ways. I just don't know what I want. Please, God, anchor it down with your love.
Don't let me just throw away my brokenness. Please God, fix them. I trust you.
God's got my heartbeat runnin' away.
True dat.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Party at my temple!
Recently, I have been reminded a lot about the temple of God within me.
Again? Okay, I get it. My temple is dirty. I will clean it like how I cleaned my room with my roommates today. Fine fine.I took a shower too! My body is clean! What do you want?
But wait - why is my temple dirty? Is it because of impurity? My imperfections? My selfish motives?
1 Corinthians 3:16 “Do you not know that you are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit dwells in you? If anyone destroys God’s temple, God will destroy him. For God’s temple is holy, and you are that temple”
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies."
Again? Okay, I get it. My temple is dirty. I will clean it like how I cleaned my room with my roommates today. Fine fine.I took a shower too! My body is clean! What do you want?
But wait - why is my temple dirty? Is it because of impurity? My imperfections? My selfish motives?
One thing I realized is that I like being liked. Actually, I love it! I love when people think I’m awesome. I love having friends and pretending to be popular. Except that sometimes this pleasure allows me to transform my
temple for God. Suddenly, I make it into a magical building. Magical – not with His holy spirit, but with my own fake powers. I decorate this place into an exclusive dirty dance party, a castle filled with luxurious goods, a museum with one exhibit - The Hall of Juliana.
I have asked God to transform me into a woman of understanding. I want to be able to feel the thoughts of other people and various values. Now, I ask Him the same but for me to have a strong foundation in Him. With the platform of His love, I won't need to be running back; I'll already be there. I want to be challenged in my thoughts with the confidence that I can win in His name.
Do not let me change for anyone else. This temple doesn’t change with guests. Jesus is my guest. He will always be my main, special guest of honor.
Party at my temple! With Jesus Christ!
You guys are invited too, I guess.
You follow my blog? Okay -VIP membership for you :p
Party in party out,
Jules
(PS- Sorry for not posting for a while.)
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
surrendering
“Jenny was a bright eyed, pretty five years old girl. One day when she and her mother were checking out the grocery store, Jenny saw a plastic pearl necklace glistening in a pink foil box.
“Oh please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, Mommy, please!”
Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl’s upturned face. “A dollar ninety-five. That’s almost $2.00. If you really want them, I’ll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday’s only a week away and you might get another crisp dollar bill from Grandma.”
As soon as Jenny got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted out 17 pennies. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. McJames if she could pick dandelions for ten cents. On her birthday, Grandma did give her another new dollar bill and at last she had enough money to buy the necklace.
Jenny loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up. She wore them everywhere - Sunday school, kindergarten, even to bed. The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had a bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.
Jenny had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready for bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story. One night when he finished the story, he asked Jenny, “Do you love me?”
“Oh yes, Daddy. You know that I love you.”
“Then give me your pearls.”
“Oh, Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess - the white horse from my collection. The one with the pink tail. Remember, Daddy? The one you gave me. She’s my favorite.”
“That’s okay, Honey. Daddy loves you. Good night.” And he brushed her cheek with a kiss. About a week later, after the story time, Jenny’s daddy asked again, “Do you love me?”
“Daddy, you know I love you.”
“Then give me your pearls.”
“Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my babydoll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is so beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper.”
“That’s okay. Sleep well. God bless you, little one. Daddy loves you.” And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss.
A few nights later when her daddy came in, Jenny was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed. As he came close, he noticed her chin was trembling and one silent tear rolled down her cheek. “What is it, Jenny? What’s the matter?”
Jenny didn’t say anything but lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it, there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver,she finally said, “Here, Daddy. It’s for you.”
With tears gathering in his own eyes, Jenny’s kind daddy reached out with one hand to take the dime-store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Jenny. He had them the whole time. He was just waiting for her to give up the dime-store stuff so he could give her genuine treasure.”
He always knows what’s best for us. Why am I blinded by my own thoughts when He asks me to surrender something valuable to me? Remember, If He takes something good away from me, it is only because He has something even greater in store for me.
(Reblogged)
“Oh please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, Mommy, please!”
Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl’s upturned face. “A dollar ninety-five. That’s almost $2.00. If you really want them, I’ll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday’s only a week away and you might get another crisp dollar bill from Grandma.”
As soon as Jenny got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted out 17 pennies. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. McJames if she could pick dandelions for ten cents. On her birthday, Grandma did give her another new dollar bill and at last she had enough money to buy the necklace.
Jenny loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up. She wore them everywhere - Sunday school, kindergarten, even to bed. The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had a bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.
Jenny had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready for bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story. One night when he finished the story, he asked Jenny, “Do you love me?”
“Oh yes, Daddy. You know that I love you.”
“Then give me your pearls.”
“Oh, Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess - the white horse from my collection. The one with the pink tail. Remember, Daddy? The one you gave me. She’s my favorite.”
“That’s okay, Honey. Daddy loves you. Good night.” And he brushed her cheek with a kiss. About a week later, after the story time, Jenny’s daddy asked again, “Do you love me?”
“Daddy, you know I love you.”
“Then give me your pearls.”
“Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my babydoll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is so beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper.”
“That’s okay. Sleep well. God bless you, little one. Daddy loves you.” And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss.
A few nights later when her daddy came in, Jenny was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed. As he came close, he noticed her chin was trembling and one silent tear rolled down her cheek. “What is it, Jenny? What’s the matter?”
Jenny didn’t say anything but lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it, there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver,she finally said, “Here, Daddy. It’s for you.”
With tears gathering in his own eyes, Jenny’s kind daddy reached out with one hand to take the dime-store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Jenny. He had them the whole time. He was just waiting for her to give up the dime-store stuff so he could give her genuine treasure.”
He always knows what’s best for us. Why am I blinded by my own thoughts when He asks me to surrender something valuable to me? Remember, If He takes something good away from me, it is only because He has something even greater in store for me.
(Reblogged)
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Go Go Summer!
Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii blog! :)
Sorry I have been writing these day. I have been quite busy Japan going to classes, learning about its culture, and visiting famous sites, etc. It's been SO GREAT here. My host family is so nice, the bulldog is the cutest ever (it makes the same noise as me "GRRRrrr"), teachers are funny, LSA+ group is awesomeee, I'm also awesome? Hehe I am sooo thankful that God has given me this opportunity to get myself back together. I have been waking up every morning with so much energy and joy that could only be coming from Him. It's interesting because I came thinking that I miiiight go to a church. Maybe. The first day I arrived at my host family's house, I was given a map with a highlighted route to a Catholic church with an English mass! Apparently the previous exchange student who lived here went to church every Sunday! Crazy much?
Actually though, I haven't been able to go last week because of a welcoming party and can't do this week due to an excursion buuuut I will the following week!
I pray that wherever you are that this summer will be an opportunity for a change of heart, for a closer relationship with the one who loves us more than anything else in this world. :)
Thankyouu
Sorry I have been writing these day. I have been quite busy Japan going to classes, learning about its culture, and visiting famous sites, etc. It's been SO GREAT here. My host family is so nice, the bulldog is the cutest ever (it makes the same noise as me "GRRRrrr"), teachers are funny, LSA+ group is awesomeee, I'm also awesome? Hehe I am sooo thankful that God has given me this opportunity to get myself back together. I have been waking up every morning with so much energy and joy that could only be coming from Him. It's interesting because I came thinking that I miiiight go to a church. Maybe. The first day I arrived at my host family's house, I was given a map with a highlighted route to a Catholic church with an English mass! Apparently the previous exchange student who lived here went to church every Sunday! Crazy much?
Actually though, I haven't been able to go last week because of a welcoming party and can't do this week due to an excursion buuuut I will the following week!
I pray that wherever you are that this summer will be an opportunity for a change of heart, for a closer relationship with the one who loves us more than anything else in this world. :)
Thankyouu
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
BIG Sigh*
feels as though I've wasted my entire day trying to accomplish one thing that seems to have failed.
but it's okay.
because i have hope. because i'm not just gonna let myself perish and wither with self-pity and self-hate
gogogogogogogo
studytime begins now/
but it's okay.
because i have hope. because i'm not just gonna let myself perish and wither with self-pity and self-hate
gogogogogogogo
studytime begins now/
Sunday, May 29, 2011
The end of my first
college year is almost here.
I was talking with my mom recently about how I felt so disappointed.
How I felt as though I have gained nothing, as though I've wasted this entire year.
How miserable I felt because I let myself become fatter, become lazier. I let myself transform into this complaining monster.
I can't really say I don't really feel that now, because that wouldn't be true.
But I feel something in addition.
I feel so thankful.
So thankful for these first memories-
the first class I attended
the first person I talked to
the first roommate I had
the first fellowship I joined
the first time I cried in college
the first pong game I played
the first 1902 all-nighter
the first Hinman letter I got
Thank you so much. (& there's definitely so much moree)
Thank you for the friendships I have created. The love that people have shown me.
The encouraging, disciplining, understanding advisers You've placed in my life.
Thank you God that I didn't give up. Thank you God that I am still trying to understand Your love.
I have failed so so much. I have been so weak, so stubborn, so bitter, so sad, so hypocritical, so rude, so negative, so sinful.
Yet, You didn't let me give up and I am just so thankful.
Sorry for who I am currently. Sorry that I haven't achieved my potentials.
I'm so sorry but I have hope.
"And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us" (Romans 5:5)
:)
I'll write more later.
Byebye!
I was talking with my mom recently about how I felt so disappointed.
How I felt as though I have gained nothing, as though I've wasted this entire year.
How miserable I felt because I let myself become fatter, become lazier. I let myself transform into this complaining monster.
I can't really say I don't really feel that now, because that wouldn't be true.
But I feel something in addition.
I feel so thankful.
So thankful for these first memories-
the first class I attended
the first person I talked to
the first roommate I had
the first fellowship I joined
the first time I cried in college
the first pong game I played
the first 1902 all-nighter
the first Hinman letter I got
Thank you so much. (& there's definitely so much moree)
Thank you for the friendships I have created. The love that people have shown me.
The encouraging, disciplining, understanding advisers You've placed in my life.
Thank you God that I didn't give up. Thank you God that I am still trying to understand Your love.
I have failed so so much. I have been so weak, so stubborn, so bitter, so sad, so hypocritical, so rude, so negative, so sinful.
Yet, You didn't let me give up and I am just so thankful.
Sorry for who I am currently. Sorry that I haven't achieved my potentials.
I'm so sorry but I have hope.
"And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us" (Romans 5:5)
:)
I'll write more later.
Byebye!
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Grrrrrr......
so much work!
i wish i could EAT IT-*
that would be a lot easier
i also wish i was at six flags
or was outside playing since its such a good weather
and i could have been
but i just chose to be in my room
"studying" -_- too bad i'm so unproductive! grrrrrr.
i also miss homeee
uh oh, i need to control my whining
i'll stop right here but just know that inside i have like 10+ things to complain about
lol but almost there! go juliana go! (self encouragement ftw)
i realized i have three main emotions that construct my life:
(&they are usually to the extreme, darnit)
1. ^__^
2. T__T
3. D:<
i am at #3 today
but nonono
no time to rawr at the world
and nope, it's not ending today
geeeeesh
the world can end after i'm dead
kthxbai
i wish i could EAT IT-*
that would be a lot easier
i also wish i was at six flags
or was outside playing since its such a good weather
and i could have been
but i just chose to be in my room
"studying" -_- too bad i'm so unproductive! grrrrrr.
i also miss homeee
uh oh, i need to control my whining
i'll stop right here but just know that inside i have like 10+ things to complain about
lol but almost there! go juliana go! (self encouragement ftw)
i realized i have three main emotions that construct my life:
(&they are usually to the extreme, darnit)
1. ^__^
2. T__T
3. D:<
i am at #3 today
but nonono
no time to rawr at the world
and nope, it's not ending today
geeeeesh
the world can end after i'm dead
kthxbai
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
no facebook
how should i waste time....................................................
maybe i shouldn't
lol-___-
D;
maybe i shouldn't
lol-___-
D;
Monday, May 9, 2011
Dear God,
Don't let me die.
Don't let go of me because I need you so much.
I feel so miserable.
I feel like you've taken away so much.
Where is the joy that you put in my life? Where is the love I had?
I'm failing school. I'm failing life. I'm failing in so many ways.
I'm dragging people into my misery, God. I'm so sorry. I have so many problems.
I used to find everything so happy. I saw happiness in others but now I just see everything depressing.
Help me.
Please? :(
Don't you give up now.
The sun will soon be shining.
You gotta face the clouds to find the silver lining.
Don't let go of me because I need you so much.
I feel so miserable.
I feel like you've taken away so much.
Where is the joy that you put in my life? Where is the love I had?
I'm failing school. I'm failing life. I'm failing in so many ways.
I'm dragging people into my misery, God. I'm so sorry. I have so many problems.
I used to find everything so happy. I saw happiness in others but now I just see everything depressing.
Help me.
Please? :(
Don't you give up now.
The sun will soon be shining.
You gotta face the clouds to find the silver lining.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Be Kind-*
for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.
-Plato
You can never know what people are going through. No one is transparent even when they may seem really open with you. So much of yourself will alway be inside only you. You can never assume anything by one's appearance, talents or lifestyle.
YOUR words are so powerful. It truly is amazing how one's words are capable of bringing you a smile or destroying your entire day. Some people are soooo good at making you feel miserable and discouraged. Let's not be like them! Ever!
-Plato
You can never know what people are going through. No one is transparent even when they may seem really open with you. So much of yourself will alway be inside only you. You can never assume anything by one's appearance, talents or lifestyle.
YOUR words are so powerful. It truly is amazing how one's words are capable of bringing you a smile or destroying your entire day. Some people are soooo good at making you feel miserable and discouraged. Let's not be like them! Ever!
Monday, May 2, 2011
AHHHHhhh!
I just erased by 10min of blogging because I think people would have thought that I'm actually crazy
o__________o!
o__________o!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
^^*
What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Happy Easter!
By faith and hope, we are able to meet Jesus and rise with him. We are grateful for everything, everything that brought us to him. Today, we are reconciled in joy with our entire lives.
God has sent His Son to die and rise for our salvation. His victory saves us from the power of sin! Aaah!
Ephesians 2:4-6
"But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions - is it by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms of Christ Jesus."
Why does He love us so much?! I don't get it!
It's Easter already-
I have failed my lent giveups this year :(
& I feel as though I haven't prepared myself for it. I did not allow myself to grow more connected with Jesus Christ. Although I feel as though I have failed, I actually haven't.
Because it's starting again.
We have life because we have Jesus Christ in us.
Through Him, I can do anything!
Give me strength!
What have I been doing with myself here @Dartmouth?! the WORST EVAAaa
anyway-happy easterrr :)
love,
jules
God has sent His Son to die and rise for our salvation. His victory saves us from the power of sin! Aaah!
Ephesians 2:4-6
"But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions - is it by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms of Christ Jesus."
Why does He love us so much?! I don't get it!
It's Easter already-
I have failed my lent giveups this year :(
& I feel as though I haven't prepared myself for it. I did not allow myself to grow more connected with Jesus Christ. Although I feel as though I have failed, I actually haven't.
Because it's starting again.
We have life because we have Jesus Christ in us.
Through Him, I can do anything!
Give me strength!
What have I been doing with myself here @Dartmouth?! the WORST EVAAaa
anyway-happy easterrr :)
love,
jules
I NEED
TO LOSE WEIGHT.
like actually
I know it's annoying when people are like "I'm fat blahblah" but this is like forreals.
Body image has been causing so many problems for me! Ugh!
It's ridiculous!
worst evaaaa*-
God, could you help me stop being obese?
please :(
like actually
I know it's annoying when people are like "I'm fat blahblah" but this is like forreals.
Body image has been causing so many problems for me! Ugh!
It's ridiculous!
worst evaaaa*-
God, could you help me stop being obese?
please :(
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Dear Juliana,
Could you stop pretending like your life sucks? Because it really doesn't,
Could you get up, do some work, get some college education, do your laundry, find your key, stop wasting time on facebook and dailycute.net, stop daydreaming about nonsense, stop whining to the world, start reading the bible more, have more faith, become motivated, be a better friend/sister/daughter, and then appreciate life a little more?
Remember of how blessed you are.
What is your problem and why is that your problem? Why are you being a little baby? Even though people call you a baby, it's not real! age-19. This is "prime time" of life! Stop wasting it!! Stop being lazy pls @now!!
Why are you hating so much? Why can't you love more? Why have you pretended like you don't need anyone? Why are you so mean to your friends? You're the worst! Stop making people feel bad!
You know what you have to do.
Here are your two immediate goals: get good grades/college degree + lose weight.
You can't do anything without effort! Why do you need yourself to encourage and remind yourself?!
Why are you blogging to yourself? You're ridiculous!
Juliana Park- do something. You have to change yourself before you can change the world.
하느님이 사랑하는 선유야 -화이팅! ^^*
Love,
Juliana-
Could you get up, do some work, get some college education, do your laundry, find your key, stop wasting time on facebook and dailycute.net, stop daydreaming about nonsense, stop whining to the world, start reading the bible more, have more faith, become motivated, be a better friend/sister/daughter, and then appreciate life a little more?
Remember of how blessed you are.
What is your problem and why is that your problem? Why are you being a little baby? Even though people call you a baby, it's not real! age-19. This is "prime time" of life! Stop wasting it!! Stop being lazy pls @now!!
Why are you hating so much? Why can't you love more? Why have you pretended like you don't need anyone? Why are you so mean to your friends? You're the worst! Stop making people feel bad!
You know what you have to do.
Here are your two immediate goals: get good grades/college degree + lose weight.
You can't do anything without effort! Why do you need yourself to encourage and remind yourself?!
Why are you blogging to yourself? You're ridiculous!
Juliana Park- do something. You have to change yourself before you can change the world.
하느님이 사랑하는 선유야 -화이팅! ^^*
Love,
Juliana-
Thursday, April 14, 2011
The Purpose of Life
is to LOVE
to love God, family, friends, others and yourself.
so hard to do
cus understanding love is hard
actually everything is hard
life is hard! -you agree?
We watch movies, read books, sing about love. I think that we feel loved sometimes, but that's only a part. Love is so big, expansive and we are only experiencing little by little in our journey.
Love is so much sacrifice, so little of yourself.
To me, the Bible is Love. It's not a way to justify life. It's not a means to evaluate people's actions.
I don't think God is asking us to worship him or wanting us to fulfill certain duties.
Our God is too good for that.
God is simply asking us to love Him and to share that love. (& through that love, WE are the ones who want to worship Him. WE are the ones who want to live in His glory, because WE want to. because of the love we received- we want to give something to him) Sharing something from the Bible is sharing love.
That is why he wants us to spread the Word. He doesn't mean to spread specific verses or historical knowledge about what someone has done in the past. He isn't asking us to be missionaries or to read everyday.
The thing is -He's not asking for anything!
except to live by love.
to love God, family, friends, others and yourself.
so hard to do
cus understanding love is hard
actually everything is hard
life is hard! -you agree?
We watch movies, read books, sing about love. I think that we feel loved sometimes, but that's only a part. Love is so big, expansive and we are only experiencing little by little in our journey.
Love is so much sacrifice, so little of yourself.
To me, the Bible is Love. It's not a way to justify life. It's not a means to evaluate people's actions.
I don't think God is asking us to worship him or wanting us to fulfill certain duties.
Our God is too good for that.
God is simply asking us to love Him and to share that love. (& through that love, WE are the ones who want to worship Him. WE are the ones who want to live in His glory, because WE want to. because of the love we received- we want to give something to him) Sharing something from the Bible is sharing love.
That is why he wants us to spread the Word. He doesn't mean to spread specific verses or historical knowledge about what someone has done in the past. He isn't asking us to be missionaries or to read everyday.
The thing is -He's not asking for anything!
except to live by love.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Consuming Fire
that song has been in my head forever!
Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God would You fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us If I were truly able to trust in His way, then I wouldn't even need to ask for anything. None of us would, right? Yet I am always asking. Through prayer, through personal efforts -I am trying to construct my own life and simply asking for God's blessing.Although I know I have so much, I don't feel it.Sure, I can say the the treasures in heaven are the only thing that matters.Yet, what about success on earth? Should that be neglected?I feel like it's always people who have succeeded so much, who have done amazing things already, who have aced their life, who have become an admired figure who tell me this. Those who have less will have more in eternity.Well, then what about those who have a lot?What about those who know God so well, who give so much to GodAND are blessed with all these talents, wisdom, beauty, and ridiculous success.What happens to them? They have treasures in heaven, but also on earth -right? Wow, they just have so much treasure everywhere. Treasure treasure treasure. Oh and then they are telling me that I only need treasure in heaven. Hmm...
Friday, March 18, 2011
Leaving
finally for Panama in the morning!
My last few days after I finished my final have been so busy! I feel like I didn't really get to rest except for that one day I didn't leave Judge...but even that day was ridiculous.
I am so exhausted right now. I actually did a lot of things today and surprisingly had quite a few people to meet even though it feels like the campus is empty. Anyway, I need to sleep...I hafta wake up early tomorrow.
Ahhh~! I'm so excited! I'm also really thirsty but I don't want to walk around in this empty building cus it's a bit scary to be honest. There's one other girl on 3rd floor still here I think. Oh no, but I'm too thirsty. I need to go get water.
Goodnight &goodbye blog (for a week)
My last few days after I finished my final have been so busy! I feel like I didn't really get to rest except for that one day I didn't leave Judge...but even that day was ridiculous.
I am so exhausted right now. I actually did a lot of things today and surprisingly had quite a few people to meet even though it feels like the campus is empty. Anyway, I need to sleep...I hafta wake up early tomorrow.
Ahhh~! I'm so excited! I'm also really thirsty but I don't want to walk around in this empty building cus it's a bit scary to be honest. There's one other girl on 3rd floor still here I think. Oh no, but I'm too thirsty. I need to go get water.
Goodnight &goodbye blog (for a week)
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Hm...
Sometimes I feel like people are praying for me.
I just get a random thought that's like I feel like someone is praying for me ._. "It's like I have ESPN" jk -__- (mean girls)
but anyway, I realized I really can't be bitter for an entire day. I should stop trying to make my days so bitter by clogging my mind with negative thoughts. Blaaah
Happiness may be contagious; but so is unhappiness. Let's stop contaminating the world with the latter.
&Let's pray for Japan
I love Japan.
I just get a random thought that's like I feel like someone is praying for me ._. "It's like I have ESPN" jk -__- (mean girls)
but anyway, I realized I really can't be bitter for an entire day. I should stop trying to make my days so bitter by clogging my mind with negative thoughts. Blaaah
Happiness may be contagious; but so is unhappiness. Let's stop contaminating the world with the latter.
&Let's pray for Japan
I love Japan.
One more
day and I am done
One more day and I can relax
Just help me through this day with calmness, focus, and understanding
I've been just -_- around these past few days; sorry if I have brought down your happiness.
Anyway, I want to stop neglecting the power of thinking.
How you do is usually determined by how well you think you'll do.
Can you believe that?
I guess it's difficult to truly believe. When you inevitably notice many flaws in yourself, it's hard to look beyond and think positive. Regardless, I WANT TO THINK MORE POSITIVELY! I've transformed into a major pessimist here and it's so sad. Ok, I'm going to do well on my final and I'm going to stop trying to take only easy classes. Instead, I will continue to challenge myself as I have done previously in my life. I will do great (cus I'm the best). Hm, THIS BETTER WORK!
In some ways, positive thinking is like faith in that we just believe without fully knowing.
Ok TIME TO GO.
WISH ME LUCK!
n__________n
One more day and I can relax
Just help me through this day with calmness, focus, and understanding
I've been just -_- around these past few days; sorry if I have brought down your happiness.
Anyway, I want to stop neglecting the power of thinking.
How you do is usually determined by how well you think you'll do.
Can you believe that?
I guess it's difficult to truly believe. When you inevitably notice many flaws in yourself, it's hard to look beyond and think positive. Regardless, I WANT TO THINK MORE POSITIVELY! I've transformed into a major pessimist here and it's so sad. Ok, I'm going to do well on my final and I'm going to stop trying to take only easy classes. Instead, I will continue to challenge myself as I have done previously in my life. I will do great (cus I'm the best). Hm, THIS BETTER WORK!
In some ways, positive thinking is like faith in that we just believe without fully knowing.
Ok TIME TO GO.
WISH ME LUCK!
n__________n
Friday, March 11, 2011
meal prayers
I usually just do them silently (or forget -_-)
but it seems like lately my non-Christian friends would wait for me to pray o_o'
or ask if I had already prayed ._.
isn't that kinda interesting?
anyway, WHY AM I WRITING A BLOG WHEN I SHOULD BE STUDYING?! WHY DO I WRITE SO MANY BLOGS NOW?! -__________-
maybe I'm improving as a blogger.
wuzzzzzzzup
but it seems like lately my non-Christian friends would wait for me to pray o_o'
or ask if I had already prayed ._.
isn't that kinda interesting?
anyway, WHY AM I WRITING A BLOG WHEN I SHOULD BE STUDYING?! WHY DO I WRITE SO MANY BLOGS NOW?! -__________-
maybe I'm improving as a blogger.
wuzzzzzzzup
Thursday, March 10, 2011
God's Profit
I’m quoting from Magnificat.
“True profit is not an accounting matter. Real gain is not accumulating things, even to the point of accumulating ‘the whole world.’ Real gain is finding oneself, which means finding one’s place in the mystery of Jesus Christ. Giving away one’s life to Jesus in a whole-hearted embrace of his cross is the key to finding oneself, for only in self-giving love are we united with Christ.”
God wants us to profit, just not in the same way society defines profit. He wants to fill us with joy.
Yet, what does it mean to deny myself? What does it mean to carry his cross? If I lose my life, I will be saved? I thought...I was already saved? Did I already lose my life? But I'm alive...
hmm >ㅂ<
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Lent
God our Father, in this lenten season may we not betray your love by trying to deserve it. Help us to fast from all that distracts us from your love. Help us to recognize you as the origin and goal of all of the desires you places in our hearts. Help us be true to ourselves and true to you by continuing to beg for your love. We ask this through Christ our Lord.
This lent I am giving up:
-chocolate
-drinks (except water)
I will (try to):
-read Bible, reflect, pray daily
-complain less
-show more love and kindness toward others
-blog daily! (maybe ._.)
This lent I am giving up:
-chocolate
-drinks (except water)
I will (try to):
-read Bible, reflect, pray daily
-complain less
-show more love and kindness toward others
-blog daily! (maybe ._.)
Could you remind me?
of God's endless love for me
Deuteronomy 31:8 "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you or forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged"
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid"
Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go"
2Corinthians 4:16&18 "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day" & "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal"
Psalm 119:116 "Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed"
Isaiah 26:3 "The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, because he trusts in You"
Psalm 55:22 "Cast your burden on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be moved"
2Timothy 1:7 "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but of power and of love, and of calm and well-balanced mind, and discipline and self-control"
Isaiah 41:10 "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"
Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble"
Matthew 6:36 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"
Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself also in the Lord and he shall give you the desires of your heart"
1Thessalonians 5:16 "Be joyful always"(personal favorite)
Deuteronomy 31:8 "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you or forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged"
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid"
Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go"
2Corinthians 4:16&18 "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day" & "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal"
Psalm 119:116 "Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed"
Isaiah 26:3 "The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, because he trusts in You"
Psalm 55:22 "Cast your burden on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be moved"
2Timothy 1:7 "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but of power and of love, and of calm and well-balanced mind, and discipline and self-control"
Isaiah 41:10 "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"
Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble"
Matthew 6:36 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"
Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself also in the Lord and he shall give you the desires of your heart"
1Thessalonians 5:16 "Be joyful always"(personal favorite)
Monday, March 7, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
march
is here.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k8uaAJFnnDU
why does everything have to be so hard?
only for now
two weeks; almost there
힘들고 짜증나ㅠㅜ
그런데 힘내고 공부해야지
i have no choice
buuut i can do anything if i just believe that i can do anything
DUH.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k8uaAJFnnDU
why does everything have to be so hard?
only for now
two weeks; almost there
힘들고 짜증나ㅠㅜ
그런데 힘내고 공부해야지
i have no choice
buuut i can do anything if i just believe that i can do anything
DUH.
Friday, February 25, 2011
God lives within me.
I can say this a hundred times.
I could probably even make a song or a kid drawing page out of it.
Yet, it is so hard to completely accept and remember.
In me, God is living; but I have trapped Him. I put him in a box and locked him in. I'm holding the key, but I can't seem to open Him. I'm too afraid. My faith is too weak.
Why can't I let God shine out of me?
Why am I doubting His power? Why do I keep denying the fact that God can use me?
Why do I feel so incompetent? :(
It doesn't make sense that He would use the weak.
If you could use a sturdy, unbreakable pencil - why would you choose to use the broken, dull one?
What am I doing, God? Where are you leading me? Am I blind in Your journey?
I also thought about how God breaks people, puts them in the lowest state to pick them up with His hands.
I also just ripped my pants o_o but just like this rip, if I patched it up - it's stronger. Though it can rip again, with the new piece of cloth, it's stronger and harder to rip again. God is making us stronger for us to endure through any unexpected surprise in life.
In Agape, someone also said that your faith, your spirituality is not based on how well you can interpret the Bible or how much you pray. This sorta struck me. Though not in entirely, this was definitely a factor in determining one's faith, how far one was in his/her walk with God. Is it really by your actions? Is it really what you do for others?
I don't know.
What I do know is that my journey can be slow. I can take a step by step, discover more of Him little by little - because this isn't a race and there is no end in God's path.
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
I could probably even make a song or a kid drawing page out of it.
Yet, it is so hard to completely accept and remember.
In me, God is living; but I have trapped Him. I put him in a box and locked him in. I'm holding the key, but I can't seem to open Him. I'm too afraid. My faith is too weak.
Why can't I let God shine out of me?
Why am I doubting His power? Why do I keep denying the fact that God can use me?
Why do I feel so incompetent? :(
It doesn't make sense that He would use the weak.
If you could use a sturdy, unbreakable pencil - why would you choose to use the broken, dull one?
What am I doing, God? Where are you leading me? Am I blind in Your journey?
I also thought about how God breaks people, puts them in the lowest state to pick them up with His hands.
I also just ripped my pants o_o but just like this rip, if I patched it up - it's stronger. Though it can rip again, with the new piece of cloth, it's stronger and harder to rip again. God is making us stronger for us to endure through any unexpected surprise in life.
In Agape, someone also said that your faith, your spirituality is not based on how well you can interpret the Bible or how much you pray. This sorta struck me. Though not in entirely, this was definitely a factor in determining one's faith, how far one was in his/her walk with God. Is it really by your actions? Is it really what you do for others?
I don't know.
What I do know is that my journey can be slow. I can take a step by step, discover more of Him little by little - because this isn't a race and there is no end in God's path.
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
としより (toshiyori)
means old people in Japanese. I just spent some time with them.
I almost didn't go to Generations today because I felt rather blah after class and wasn't even sure that the elderly we were visiting even cared that much - or if I cared for that matter. For the last few weeks, I've been going with the wrong mindset. Going because I said I would, but really just being tired and half listening to the discussions.
For some reason, today really touched me.
I realized that these people didn't just see us as volunteers coming in once a week, but rather friends they wanted to build a relationship with. Despite the generation gap, they were comfortable sharing their stories and their lives. I discovered that they have gone through sooooo many losses, but still could smile and laugh with us. Although I couldn't emphasize with them and was scared that I was asking sensitive questions, I admired them.
Even with their deteriorating eyesight, feeble body...
their family members and friends who have left this world...
their children not contacting them, their failed marriages....
they would laugh at old pictures and smile, recalling their childhood memories.
Just looking at them "hehehehe"-ing hysterically at a picture where a man didn't have his pants zippers up, made me laugh too. Memories and pictures have so much capability of bringing joy.
Their sincere thanks and eagerness for us to come to their potluck really touched me.
Uh oh, I have to go -_-
The end.
I almost didn't go to Generations today because I felt rather blah after class and wasn't even sure that the elderly we were visiting even cared that much - or if I cared for that matter. For the last few weeks, I've been going with the wrong mindset. Going because I said I would, but really just being tired and half listening to the discussions.
For some reason, today really touched me.
I realized that these people didn't just see us as volunteers coming in once a week, but rather friends they wanted to build a relationship with. Despite the generation gap, they were comfortable sharing their stories and their lives. I discovered that they have gone through sooooo many losses, but still could smile and laugh with us. Although I couldn't emphasize with them and was scared that I was asking sensitive questions, I admired them.
Even with their deteriorating eyesight, feeble body...
their family members and friends who have left this world...
their children not contacting them, their failed marriages....
they would laugh at old pictures and smile, recalling their childhood memories.
Just looking at them "hehehehe"-ing hysterically at a picture where a man didn't have his pants zippers up, made me laugh too. Memories and pictures have so much capability of bringing joy.
Their sincere thanks and eagerness for us to come to their potluck really touched me.
Uh oh, I have to go -_-
The end.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Just the simple words...
"I'm so proud of you" from my dad makes me want to cry.
아빠,
사실 저 잘하고있는거 없는데..
지금 절보면 실망 하실건데..
다른애들이랑 비교해보면, 저 너무 한심하지만..
그것도 모르고 (그런데, 알아도) 제가 자랑스럽다는말을 해주니깐
고마움에 눈물나와요
------------------
나를위해 모든걸 해줄수 있는 아빠
내가 뭐를해도 끝없이 사랑해주는 아빠
언제나 이뻐해주고, 기분좋게해주는 아빠
진짜 이세상에서 내아빠 최고
하느님 -이런 아빠를 저한태 주셔서 너무 고마워요
I love my dad sooooooo much.
He has given me inspiration, encouragement, trust, faith, and most importantly unconditional love.
아빠 너무 고마워
It's not only on Father's Day that I appreciate you, but every day of my life!
이걸 아빠한태 보내면, 그냥 느끼하게 쓴거라고 생각할수있지만-
솔직히, this is my 진심.
아빠,
사실 저 잘하고있는거 없는데..
지금 절보면 실망 하실건데..
다른애들이랑 비교해보면, 저 너무 한심하지만..
그것도 모르고 (그런데, 알아도) 제가 자랑스럽다는말을 해주니깐
고마움에 눈물나와요
------------------
나를위해 모든걸 해줄수 있는 아빠
내가 뭐를해도 끝없이 사랑해주는 아빠
언제나 이뻐해주고, 기분좋게해주는 아빠
진짜 이세상에서 내아빠 최고
하느님 -이런 아빠를 저한태 주셔서 너무 고마워요
I love my dad sooooooo much.
He has given me inspiration, encouragement, trust, faith, and most importantly unconditional love.
아빠 너무 고마워
It's not only on Father's Day that I appreciate you, but every day of my life!
이걸 아빠한태 보내면, 그냥 느끼하게 쓴거라고 생각할수있지만-
솔직히, this is my 진심.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Perfection.
Blaaah. I'm so imperfect...
I almost wrote an ultra bitter blog, but then I erased it.
I missed church three weeks in a row :((
Sorry God. I suck.
buuut I just read in this little book my priest gave me earlier this month. It's called Magnificat and has monthly issues with daily prayers, the word, and meditation. I haven't touched it at all until this morning & I discovered:
'Perfection is nothing else than the faithful co-operation of the soul with the work of God, and it begins, grows and is consummated in our souls secretly and without our being aware of it.' -Father de Caussade
My idea of perfection is so flawed.
My image of a perfect figure is so beautiful. Pretty face, slim body, intelligent mind, selfless and loving heart. Self-disciplined. Follows plans. Loved unconditionally. Genuine. Has a hot male counterpart... -_-
.
Not lazy. Not bitter.Not anxious about the future. Not afraid. Not struggling in easy classes. Not binge eating and feeling disgusting. Not wasting time. Not failing.
Everything I lack, this figment epitomically demonstrates.
This illusion I created covered up Jesus Christ.
I've forgotten about God's designs and will. His power to embrace us with love that is soooo divine and so perfect, that nothing else in this world matters. Lately, I have just been only concentrated on theological knowledge. So many questions just got stuck in my mind. Why was it that I had to seek God? If He really does love me that much why can't He find me and engulf me with knowledge and love? How could I be a princess in His kingdom if I'm a servant? What kind of royalty is this?! If what come out of one's mouth make him unclean because it affects the heart, how can those who honor Him with their lips have hearts that are so far from Him?
Yet, it is not the philosophy or scientific fire that warms us. God creates sanctity in our souls and not intellectual speculations about this principle.
"If we wish to quench our thirst, we must lay aside books which explain thirst, and take a drink."
I need to take a drink. Gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp.
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Matthew 5:48 "Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect."
I remembered the song by Natalie Grant - Perfect People. She sings that "there's no such thing as perfect people" but if God lives within us, shouldn't we be perfect? There is such thing as perfect people & I will become one of them.
Lord, please shower me with joy. It is day by day we live for you, not once a week, or once a month.
Just like this, help me live day by day. 하루하루 열심히. I can't give up. If I take a wrong path, I shall make a new route in the right direction.
God will give me strength. After all - I am His princess, right?
I almost wrote an ultra bitter blog, but then I erased it.
I missed church three weeks in a row :((
Sorry God. I suck.
buuut I just read in this little book my priest gave me earlier this month. It's called Magnificat and has monthly issues with daily prayers, the word, and meditation. I haven't touched it at all until this morning & I discovered:
'Perfection is nothing else than the faithful co-operation of the soul with the work of God, and it begins, grows and is consummated in our souls secretly and without our being aware of it.' -Father de Caussade
My idea of perfection is so flawed.
My image of a perfect figure is so beautiful. Pretty face, slim body, intelligent mind, selfless and loving heart. Self-disciplined. Follows plans. Loved unconditionally. Genuine. Has a hot male counterpart... -_-
.
Not lazy. Not bitter.Not anxious about the future. Not afraid. Not struggling in easy classes. Not binge eating and feeling disgusting. Not wasting time. Not failing.
Everything I lack, this figment epitomically demonstrates.
This illusion I created covered up Jesus Christ.
I've forgotten about God's designs and will. His power to embrace us with love that is soooo divine and so perfect, that nothing else in this world matters. Lately, I have just been only concentrated on theological knowledge. So many questions just got stuck in my mind. Why was it that I had to seek God? If He really does love me that much why can't He find me and engulf me with knowledge and love? How could I be a princess in His kingdom if I'm a servant? What kind of royalty is this?! If what come out of one's mouth make him unclean because it affects the heart, how can those who honor Him with their lips have hearts that are so far from Him?
Yet, it is not the philosophy or scientific fire that warms us. God creates sanctity in our souls and not intellectual speculations about this principle.
"If we wish to quench our thirst, we must lay aside books which explain thirst, and take a drink."
I need to take a drink. Gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp.
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Matthew 5:48 "Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect."
I remembered the song by Natalie Grant - Perfect People. She sings that "there's no such thing as perfect people" but if God lives within us, shouldn't we be perfect? There is such thing as perfect people & I will become one of them.
Lord, please shower me with joy. It is day by day we live for you, not once a week, or once a month.
Just like this, help me live day by day. 하루하루 열심히. I can't give up. If I take a wrong path, I shall make a new route in the right direction.
God will give me strength. After all - I am His princess, right?
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Oh no...
I should be in class right now.
Although I'd be late, I could go and it wouldn't be a big deal.
Buuuut I just don't want to o_o''
I don't want to do anything! I feel so disorganized. Sigh; I'm just going to ditch Japanese class, I guess. I also haven't done any of my seminar readings. -_________-
Ughhh
lakddlkfjlakdhf
Tomorrow, I'll just pretend like today didn't exist.
Although I'd be late, I could go and it wouldn't be a big deal.
Buuuut I just don't want to o_o''
I don't want to do anything! I feel so disorganized. Sigh; I'm just going to ditch Japanese class, I guess. I also haven't done any of my seminar readings. -_________-
Ughhh
lakddlkfjlakdhf
Tomorrow, I'll just pretend like today didn't exist.
Friday, February 11, 2011
19
Before anything, I'd like to thank God for giving me this wonderful life.
I know I am so blessed, even when I am denying it. It's just too easy to want more. I'm so greedy but is that okay? Can I keep asking for more? (I hope the answer is yes.)
Anyway, this is what it must feel to be 19.
I want to be forever young. My friends are so nice in creating Operation Jules Rules; hahah.
I do rule. It's a fact.
There was actually a Queen Juliana. She was the ruler of Netherlands.
Blaaah. Why am I awake?! o_____o
I know I am so blessed, even when I am denying it. It's just too easy to want more. I'm so greedy but is that okay? Can I keep asking for more? (I hope the answer is yes.)
Anyway, this is what it must feel to be 19.
I want to be forever young. My friends are so nice in creating Operation Jules Rules; hahah.
I do rule. It's a fact.
There was actually a Queen Juliana. She was the ruler of Netherlands.
Blaaah. Why am I awake?! o_____o
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
I wonder
WHO READS THIS?!
lol; really- I kinda want to get rid of this cus it's a bit useless and I don't think anyone reads it besides maybe like one person HAHaha
buuut
-_-
IDK HOW TO GET RID OF IT EITHER!
oh well.
sorry for all the CAPS! I AM ACTUALLY PRETTY CALM!
(:
hey alice. special shout out to you
lol; really- I kinda want to get rid of this cus it's a bit useless and I don't think anyone reads it besides maybe like one person HAHaha
buuut
-_-
IDK HOW TO GET RID OF IT EITHER!
oh well.
sorry for all the CAPS! I AM ACTUALLY PRETTY CALM!
(:
hey alice. special shout out to you
I'm trying to
challenge what i believe in, right?
I used to not completely believe in the Bible...& I can't say that do right now either (esp. since I haven't read all of it)
buuuut regardless I need to understand it first. I need to know my biblical faith is genuine before anything else.
Why is it that the more i read the bible, the more questions i have.
Why is my confusion growing and growing?! WHY AM I SO CONFUSED! ALWAYS?! I feel like suddenly I have been filled with so many questions and the yearning for these answers I wouldn't have really cared much about before.
Oh yeah, I still don't know how to blog really.
I'll try to write better things later...oh, idk like the blogs where your thoughts are organized -_-+
BLAHhhhh
Okay that is all for now.
Baiiiii
I used to not completely believe in the Bible...& I can't say that do right now either (esp. since I haven't read all of it)
buuuut regardless I need to understand it first. I need to know my biblical faith is genuine before anything else.
Why is it that the more i read the bible, the more questions i have.
Why is my confusion growing and growing?! WHY AM I SO CONFUSED! ALWAYS?! I feel like suddenly I have been filled with so many questions and the yearning for these answers I wouldn't have really cared much about before.
Oh yeah, I still don't know how to blog really.
I'll try to write better things later...oh, idk like the blogs where your thoughts are organized -_-+
BLAHhhhh
Okay that is all for now.
Baiiiii
Friday, February 4, 2011
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